Holding Back The Tears by Dong Bang Shin Ki

i slept at 5am this morning and woke up at 10am.

then i cant sleep anymore.

very early in the morning yesterday, i posted this photo.

i actually watch the drama/film/whatever it is when i was still studying in college. it is about an idol group that were sent off to go for a vacation on their own separately; and that they have found something special during their vacation.

well i didnt really find anything during the last 4 weeks of my vacation.

i am supposed to be in CRIB.

but i am not sure if i find something in the last 2 weeks of my vacation.

i need to go to office again today.

i need to arrange something about my claims for the previous couple of months.

i need to take the winter jacket the designer eager to let me wear it.

i need to compile the itinerary i made printed by the Training Coordinator - yes, i am responsible of arranging our flights and the places that we want to go.

i havent gone to shower.

i am sitting in my room in Putrajaya counting hours that i have in Malaysia before i board the plane.

there is something about this trip that i can never tell anyone.

ever.

...

im holding back the tears
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im holding back the tears
i walk trying to lessen the weight of my heart
to a place that is neither close nor far
where a different me stands